"Waiting for your unexpected message which is so impossible."

It's already the month of February, 2 days after Valentine's day! It's been awhile, my dear old blogspot! I've been reposting pictures at tumblr, like I am DEFINITELY lazy. Geez, HAHA! It's about 8 more days to my Official Graduation Day at ITE Dover and it's my very first time wearing a rope and P/P.S. my batch is the first to wear it okay! Hehe. And I have been going out for Photography sessions, or let's just say I've been slacking at home watching videos, drawing, surfing the net and of course -  sleeping obsession. LOL. Well, the picture right up there one of my photography outing photos which looks to me: "Like Mother and Daughter.", taking a stroll at the park on the bridge. Yeah, it's dedicated to those people who thinks Valentine's Day is just for love couples, but NOT TRUE! It's also can be a Family Day, Friendship Day or perhaps spreading your love around the world. Everyone just crap around online saying it's some #foreveralone a.k.a. Single's Day. Nahhh, don't think of it like that. It can be celebrating your love with your pet, friends, family, God, your dearly departed relative souls and etc. So, it's just a day to share your love, not foreveralone! You're never alone but of course deep down, perhaps of course we're mostly carrying alot of downside emotions these day. Shall give yourself a pat on your head and just smile, living life to the fullest!

Alright, yeah I've been down quite alot lately, sorry my dear friends... It's just that - In my life, I felt real annoyed when people keeps thinking you're this and that, faking your image or etc. but honestly, did you even trust the other side of the story? Everyone has their story, but different and judgemental. But behind every reason whether different or not, we're hurt because we mistook each other. Life is some complicated circumstances with lots of negative body languages that make us misunderstand. I have that one friend I would love to talk back again, but everything seems hectic. I didn't want to go back there because I didn't like conflicts to make the atmosphere there irritated again and again, even though different things happen there. But yet, that friend mistook my feelings and I am wondering why the hell that friend thinks it like that way? Honestly speaking, 50/50 are true and not true, but not lies. The way I see my friend's social networks saying some things about me..., I felt really dead speechless and keep thinking it's like that and that. I felt really disappointed. I did stalk, because I was concerned, but what can I really do when my parents have seen it all when I am trying to hide? You keep think it is you, you and you. I know you're tired, but ignorance stood best. But why do you still care what am I doing too still? I never even think I fell for you, it's the people around there thinks we're one, not me and it's the fact. I just see you as a great friend who teaches me everything, but yet you think it's all about you, you and you. And I always have to be the one who said sorry, and you still keep disbelieve in me. Then what for I want to start talking when you give such remark all over? Yes, I am scared to talk to you that's because you keep doubting me when you don't even believe what I said. Then what's the long message for? I don't know whether I should really promise you to come and see you perform on March to make you satisfied like what you said...

I really hate it when things happen at the wrong time on purpose, not accidental or coincidence. I have really nothing to say, but all I really want you to know - I am not your better friend to be there for you like how often it were. But just stay happy as always and be the best on your musical position. You know... He's watching you. If you know what I mean. :)

I want to explore and practice, if I can't make it. I still stay on this path, but let the wind from the sky go with the flow with me. Nor success or fail, I just want to make every move on this octopus path. It's either some ways to move on or stay, and that's me. :)