Hi people, it's been long not blogging huh?
Haha, didn't have my dinner, I also don't feel like eating.
Nowadays I don't feel like myself at all, trust all gone.
Friends are not there for, they're not even true.
I'm just an ugly piece of shit, can never be smart or pretty or talented like shit that can impressed everyone in this world.
I'm just nothing to everyone, neither a friend, close or best.
I'm just like an outsider that nobody trust me and find me weird, slow, ugly.
I'm just like a caterpillar, and everyone else are like butterflies in this world.
I don't have a good simple life. Why judge me when you dunno me?
MISUNDERSTANDINGS KILL PEOPLE LIKE ME.
I can't be the Vanessa that hypers or horny hero to everyone anymore.
I just like a useless shit putting up double mask over me to pretend that I'm ok.
Nobody understands me, people misunderstands me.
Everyone wants what they want in person, nobody gives support and even there.
I'm just gone..... I have phobia to be what I envy to be, I'm not anymore...

I'm back a loser...