BONJOUR!
Haha, yep finally back blogging. I bet not much people reading it as before during my secondary school days. Anyway, I had a great day yesterday cycling @ East Coast Park with my band friends. Photo shown at Facebook, haha! And MF5 is coming; not only but Christmas! Oh gosh. *drools* HAHA. It's my very first time with a concert band playing so many pieces unlike secondary school playing less than 4-5 pieces. But now I heard that it's more than 18? I'm like SHUT UP, HAHAHAHAHA. Meaning, Omg SERIOUS?! in American style. Nyaha. Oh-mm-gee, I can't wait for Christmas which is somemore a SATURDAY! I miss my old peeps, can't WAIT for exams to be over. I mean it, HAHAHAH. I can't wait to go poly too. It's like years pass by so fast, and look I'm 17 yo. Whoa, I feel my aged of 8 is so like yesterday. I still can picture it in my mind, so clear. September has been a bad month to me, which I kinda don't know why. October's something afresh for me, I'm really looking forward in big events coming near November. :-) I miss my besties, my old cliques, secondary school band, ite band, old secondary school mates & my mom's side family alot. That's it, I'm straight forward with my answers. Because I feel that I'm myself there. :/ But Love isn't easy. I couldn't trust myself over Love anymore. Because I felt like an idiot secretly sacrifice and treasure, but turns up a trash of rejections. When comes to the end of relationship, what I see among myself and my friends' relationship, people pimp-pointing its faults. Is that love? Nah, people just wanna be a winner that takes it all. But one thing that alot of us don't know is, what's each other mind thinking. Is happiness really there when jealousy takes place? Yeah, guys think its flirting while girls think it's socializing. But hey, have you people ever thought of respecting and appreciate one and another? You think, is he/she (he)rself? No right? Just because some people don't even trust and have faith. It's your mind control you (IQ), but where's your heart? (EQ) Just take those IQ and EQ for examples. If only couples love each other, trust each other, have faith together, that's alright. Happiness's just there, fullstop. Controlling can be minor, but you don't change who he/she is unless he/she born from the negatives. Trust each other instincts, they'll know what's good or bad if you know him/her very well. Unless you're meant for his/her life if they've gone bad and you're the change of his/her life. <<< That's fate anyway. Love ain't superstitious, it matter how both of you are strong and meant to be together. Love isn't money, but you can buy his/her love to become one house of the hearts. Love isn't (really) jealous, because you know you already belong to his/her heart. But just because you think you're not a better person. A real man/lady must know they're the man/woman! Many people think jealousy is good to show/tell because it shows how much he/she love him/her, but you don't have to lose, keep winning his/her heart. Because you know you love for the sake of him/her and you know what to do what's right for him/her. Love can be a sacrifice, because you don't want him/her to be in pain. You're the guard-of-honor of his/her heart. That's what I believe in Love. But I'm not trying to say as if I know what's Love 100% about. It is what I see and feel, that's all. But Love, you've to be your true self. Every true self is neither good/bad. But true to whoever and yourself. Wearing a mask can be addictive and a shield to hide who you are, what you're brought up with/at or let's just say reputation. Being yourself is better for whom you're brought up as from the positive life, because everyone's equal. Lastly, Love is part of the independence and responsibility in you. That's what I strongly believe. Haha, whoa I typed so much. :/ Anyway, it's just facts of what I believe. Even if you disagree, I'm okay with it. Because different thoughts and beliefs. But friends, sorry for being so emotional for weeks and affect you all. I just wasn't quite myself after so much depression over problems. But I want to throw those depression away so badly. That's why I can't wait for DECEMBER. Nyahahaha. I've to be afresh, ya'll. Nights!

Walk With Me, O Lord.